My frustrations yesterday with my computer turned into a blessing after I took the time to step away, think, and prioritize. You know me…I must analyze every thought process, problem, and event to the point of obsession. My nature.
I came away from the experience with a reminder of what it feels like to “follow the directions” and get a totally unforeseen outcome. I said yesterday that it made me feel stupid. Technology does that. It seems simple enough for the smallest child to master, and yet…if something goes wrong you quickly discover that it is far more complicated than you can imagine. Behind that pretty screen is the so much more than the wizard!
It occurred to me this morning that I probably needed a reminder of what my students feel like when they are trying to fill their little brains with all the information they need for reading. Some are listening and doing and “following the directions” and it just isn’t happening for them. The just can’t get their brains to remember the sound of “g” or that “u always follows q”. It seems simple to those of us who have already mastered the process- much like the support tech who easily went through all the folders and files and procedures that might lead to a resolution of my technical problems.
Yesterday was also a reminder that I have an inordinate fear of “breaking things” that is deeply rooted in my childhood and in my psyche. I can’t pinpoint the exact cause of it, but I know it is there and it often interferes with my ability to try something new. I was terrified, and I use that word for its exact meaning, when I first started using a computer. I just knew that my ineptitude would cause it to explode into a puff of smoke or something. My fear now is that something I do will destroy the many files I have accumulated on it. But I know there is a solution to that problem and I need to take advantage of it.
I guess I also needed a reminder that taking photographs and editing and sharing them is enjoyable and rewarding, but not the most important thing in my life. It’s certainly a creative outlet for me, and we all need one, but it isn’t the “end of the world” if I don’t do it for a while. My mother was fond of that phrase. I’d get all upset about some minor thing, usually related to school or my friends, and she’d say “Well, it’s not the end of the world.” And of course she was right. There are so many more serious problems each day. And BTW- I’m still taking pictures…they’re just sitting in my camera until I find another way to edit and share them.
I must say, too, that my experience yesterday with the support staff at Amazon was the best “customer service” experience I’ve ever encountered. I am usually annoyed by the nearly incomprehensible accent, superior attitude, and complex vocabulary of tech people. Yesterday was the complete opposite and even though my problem wasn’t solved, the person who helped me was pleasant, courteous, and understandable.
So here we are with a new day ahead of us. Things to do, places to go, people to see…and as always, lessons to be learned.
(Note: I'm currently using photos taken last September.)