For the most part I am a positive, confident person and I believe I am doing the best I can to make my corner of the world a little better. However, there are days when I have serious doubts about some aspects of my life.
I doubt my capabilities as a teacher, and I wonder why I haven’t made more progress with some of my students.
I doubt my compassion as a person and wonder why I am not more involved in charity work like some of my friends.
I doubt my sociability and wonder why I don’t seek out more activities with friends.
I doubt my supportiveness and wonder if I really do enough for my children and grandchildren.
I doubt my intelligence and motivation and wonder why I didn’t put forth the extra effort to get my doctorate.
I doubt my abilities and wonder why I can’t grasp more of the fine points of photography that set me so far apart from the professionals.
I doubt my physical strength and wonder when my failings will start to affect more than my gardening.
I could go on, but then I would only sound like a whiner, and that is not my intention.
I think our doubts can actually make us better and stronger if we don’t wallow too long in self-pity.
Doubts can help us to reconsider our priorities, renew our efforts, and restore the balance of our life.
Doubts can, and should, drive us forward after we look at, but don’t dwell on what we have done in the past.
Doubts can be a positive thing…if we use them that way.