I've said before that I have no regrets about my life. I've made a lot of mistakes, but I've learned from them and grown and changed and been blessed along the way. I wouldn't change anything I've done if it meant giving up the people and relationships that have enriched my life so much. However...
However. There is one person from my past who reaches out occasionally and stabs at my heart one more time just to remind me that she changed my life. There is one person who can still bring tears to my eyes at the very mention of her name. And I find myself wondering...what if?
What if my parents hadn't let her spend so much time with me as a child?
What if she hadn't been so hurt and so flawed by her relationship with her dad?
What if I hadn't loved her so much?
What if she hadn't joined a cult?
What if I hadn't believed so many of her lies?
What if I hadn't let her influence so many of my relationships?
What if I hadn't let her spend so much time with my own children?
What if they hadn't believed so many of her lies?
That's a lot of wondering. And perhaps a warning to those of you with young children. Sometime in the future the words and actions of the people in your life right now may return to make you wonder.