Having a blog might make some people feel proud and powerful. They speak their mind and others listen.
Having a blog makes me feel blessed and insignificant. Perhaps the two seem contradictory, but it works for me. I am blessed to be able to share my little view of the world with some very special people. I am blessed by your opinions, your encouragement, your prayers, and your stories. I am blessed merely by the fact that you care enough to take the time to read my simple words. I know you are busy and overwhelmed by your own life. It is gratifying that you care about mine.
Having a blog also means that I visit other blogs. And that’s when I feel insignificant. There are so many writers who are better than I am. There are gardeners with gardens that put mine to shame. There are photographers with pictures so breathtaking they make me want to hide my camera in humiliation. There are women with lives more charitable and more exciting and more challenging than mine. I am inspired by their words and their courage. I feel like I don’t belong in their league and I’m wasting your time with my words.
But here I am.
I’m doing the best I can, where I am, with what I have.
That actually makes me feel blessed beyond measure. The internet has given me a new perspective about how many people there are in the world who are doing just what I’m doing. And we love hearing from and helping each other. That’s what makes the internet so powerful. It connects us with people who make us question our place in the world, who make us question our ideas and our values. It gives us the ability to communicate with people beyond our own limited geography and perspective. That makes us all stronger and better. If I make the life of one person just a little better, and they make the life of one person better, millions will eventually benefit from our efforts. That makes me, and you, just as powerful and influential as anyone on earth.
I can’t believe how much better I feel today about my eye, and much of my change of perspective is due to the fact that six of you cared enough to share your stories and encouragement with me. Also, I can’t stay miserable for more than a minute or two because it’s just so…well, miserable, and I don’t like that feeling at all. I can’t see any better today. In fact it is a little worse. But whatever happens will just be a bump in the road compared to what others are facing. The view from here is dimmer today, but it’s still great!
Thanks for visiting.